Stubborn love walks back into the room after a fight.
Stubborn love tries to see things from the others point of view.
Stubborn love tries to understand the others point of view.
Stubborn love forgives and forgets quickly.
Stubborn love doesn't continually bring up past mistakes.
Stubborn love takes a deep breath and tries not to yell when frustrated.
Stubborn love protects and defends to others.
Stubborn love assumes the best instead of the worst.
Stubborn love gives grace again and again.
Stubborn love doesn't give up loving even when things are frustrating.
Stubborn love sees the big picture instead of just today's misunderstandings.
Stubborn love is in it for the long haul.
hmmm.
reminds me of 1 Corinthians 13.
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Thursday, January 21, 2010
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Your love
"Your love never fails,
The chasm's far too wide,
Never thought I'd reach the other side,
But your love never fails."
Can't get this song out of my head since Sunday.
Praise Him.
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The chasm's far too wide,
Never thought I'd reach the other side,
But your love never fails."
Can't get this song out of my head since Sunday.
Praise Him.
- Posted using BlogPress from my iPod
Friday, January 15, 2010
Learning to Trust
A few weeks ago, Justin and I had a large fight and I ended up crying on the floor in our bedroom.
[Don't be too alarmed, I always end up crying on the floor. It makes me feel dramatically justified when I sit on the floor. Makes me feel more pathetic or something, I don't know. It's a quirk. Don't you love those?]
As I was sitting there with my Kleenex, I tried to figure out why I was crying so hard. Why was I reacting so emotionally to, truthfully, a small disagreement? The truth came out when Justin and I talked a little bit later. I was trying to explain why I was so upset when flying out of my mouth came, "How many fights can we have before you don't want to come home anymore?"
Shocking, but it matched what I had said earlier in the month right before Justin's granddad's funeral, when after a fight I looked at him and said, "I just don't know what I would do if I lost you."
I was struggling with trust. It's a difficult thing, not just sometimes, but I think all the time. Especially when people you love are involved. Loving anyone requires trusting the Lord with them. It also requires learning to trust them.
The Lord has really challenged me in this recently. I realized I was carrying a lot of stress, worrying about whether Justin would come home safe, worrying that I might make him really mad and he wouldn't want to be married anymore. The Lord was calling me to lay it all down at His feet. So I started praying, I started reading Matthew 6 and I started talk to Justin about it.
Through it all, the Lord gave me peace overflowing through everything. I remembered that He is good and faithful and above ALL things. That He loves me, and that is the most important thing. He reminded me of just how faithful He's been and how trustworthy He is. Remembering all of this, I felt loved and full of His peace. I can trust Him not only with myself, but now with Justin.
As we talked, Justin reassured me. That he loves me and that he's not going anywhere. His response to my shocking statements mentioned above were perfect. He looked at me, hugged me and said, "Just because we're fighting does not mean that I don't love you. I love you. I am not going anywhere. We're going to be married for a very long time."
I think the two men in my life are amazing and so patient with me. I am so grateful for the Lord AND to the Lord for Justin. Learning to trust now that I'm married has been a beautiful and hard thing, but it's been worth it. SO worth it.
[Don't be too alarmed, I always end up crying on the floor. It makes me feel dramatically justified when I sit on the floor. Makes me feel more pathetic or something, I don't know. It's a quirk. Don't you love those?]
As I was sitting there with my Kleenex, I tried to figure out why I was crying so hard. Why was I reacting so emotionally to, truthfully, a small disagreement? The truth came out when Justin and I talked a little bit later. I was trying to explain why I was so upset when flying out of my mouth came, "How many fights can we have before you don't want to come home anymore?"
Shocking, but it matched what I had said earlier in the month right before Justin's granddad's funeral, when after a fight I looked at him and said, "I just don't know what I would do if I lost you."
I was struggling with trust. It's a difficult thing, not just sometimes, but I think all the time. Especially when people you love are involved. Loving anyone requires trusting the Lord with them. It also requires learning to trust them.
The Lord has really challenged me in this recently. I realized I was carrying a lot of stress, worrying about whether Justin would come home safe, worrying that I might make him really mad and he wouldn't want to be married anymore. The Lord was calling me to lay it all down at His feet. So I started praying, I started reading Matthew 6 and I started talk to Justin about it.
Through it all, the Lord gave me peace overflowing through everything. I remembered that He is good and faithful and above ALL things. That He loves me, and that is the most important thing. He reminded me of just how faithful He's been and how trustworthy He is. Remembering all of this, I felt loved and full of His peace. I can trust Him not only with myself, but now with Justin.
As we talked, Justin reassured me. That he loves me and that he's not going anywhere. His response to my shocking statements mentioned above were perfect. He looked at me, hugged me and said, "Just because we're fighting does not mean that I don't love you. I love you. I am not going anywhere. We're going to be married for a very long time."
I think the two men in my life are amazing and so patient with me. I am so grateful for the Lord AND to the Lord for Justin. Learning to trust now that I'm married has been a beautiful and hard thing, but it's been worth it. SO worth it.
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Saturday, January 9, 2010
A Blog About Nothing
My husband just left to go to a gun show in Butler. :)
It makes him happy and I am so glad he is happy.
I hope he has fun.
We had fluffy golden pancakes for breakfast with raspberry jam (and nutella for me).
They were yummy in my tummy.
Work has been stinky lately.
Nice, because I actually have felt more like a nurse lately and less like a babysitter.
Bad, because all the kids are just SO sick and we each have 4-5 of them.
Yesterday I had two kids that made me nervous,
and I am not often nervous at work because of kids. Really.
I'm thinking about them today still, hoping they are doing better.
We are almost through season two of Battlestar Galactica
and as nerdy as that sounds, I LOVE IT!
It is an awesome series.....SO much better than Star Trek.
lol.
Reading a book called "Start Your Family" by Steve and Candace Watters.
They founded boundless.org the webzine that we like to read.
It a book about how babies are blessings and from the Lord
and all the good reasons to start having them NOW!
Not that I really need to read all those reasons,
but I've been curious about this book for months.
and yes, we are NOT pregnant and are still going to wait until later 2011 to start trying.
right now, we just really have a peace about waiting.
If anything changes, we'll be sure to let you all know.
smile.
The Lord has been sweet lately.
I have been loving my iPod listening to worship music
and downloading podcasts to listen to.
Lately, I have been listening to Mark Driscoll a lot.
He is good.
and faithful
and true
and right.
Yes.
Life is good, the end.
And yes, I'm still eating the sugar cookie dough
I made last month to roll out and make cookies with.
Obviously, it never made it that far
and frozen cookie dough tastes WONDERFUL!
It makes him happy and I am so glad he is happy.
I hope he has fun.
We had fluffy golden pancakes for breakfast with raspberry jam (and nutella for me).
They were yummy in my tummy.
Work has been stinky lately.
Nice, because I actually have felt more like a nurse lately and less like a babysitter.
Bad, because all the kids are just SO sick and we each have 4-5 of them.
Yesterday I had two kids that made me nervous,
and I am not often nervous at work because of kids. Really.
I'm thinking about them today still, hoping they are doing better.
We are almost through season two of Battlestar Galactica
and as nerdy as that sounds, I LOVE IT!
It is an awesome series.....SO much better than Star Trek.
lol.
Reading a book called "Start Your Family" by Steve and Candace Watters.
They founded boundless.org the webzine that we like to read.
It a book about how babies are blessings and from the Lord
and all the good reasons to start having them NOW!
Not that I really need to read all those reasons,
but I've been curious about this book for months.
and yes, we are NOT pregnant and are still going to wait until later 2011 to start trying.
right now, we just really have a peace about waiting.
If anything changes, we'll be sure to let you all know.
smile.
The Lord has been sweet lately.
I have been loving my iPod listening to worship music
and downloading podcasts to listen to.
Lately, I have been listening to Mark Driscoll a lot.
He is good.
and faithful
and true
and right.
Yes.
Life is good, the end.
And yes, I'm still eating the sugar cookie dough
I made last month to roll out and make cookies with.
Obviously, it never made it that far
and frozen cookie dough tastes WONDERFUL!
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