Sometimes, I forget how big God really is.
I get really bogged down by everything I have to do, the standard to which I think everything should be done, expectations and responsibilities I place on myself, people I should see, friends I should call, dreams and goals and all the little things that make up everyone's life! There is always a lot of things to do and not enough hours in the day to do them. Often, it leaves me feeling frustrated and defeated by the end of the day.
That's the kind of week I had this past week. Just overwhelmed, tired, frustrated and just dry spiritually. All used up. At some point on Thursday, I just stopped and told God exactly how I was feeling. It wasn't very pretty, but it was necessary.
Almost immediately, this phrase came to mind: He is well able.
My mind flashed back to a time during the Honor Academy. It was the weekend and that week had gone similar to the week I just experienced. We were all in school buses driving to the Grand Canyon. I was journaling because I was really just too irritated with everything to inflict myself on others by talking to them. I was in the middle of complaining and worrying about something to the Lord when we pulled up beside the Canyon wall. The conversation in my head went something like this.
God: Look out out the window.
Me: Wow. The Grand Canyon is HUGE. More than huge. Bigger than I thought it would be.
God: Kristen, as big as the Grand Canyon is, I am bigger.
God: I am bigger.
It only took three seconds to communicate all that, but the message was clear. God is bigger than me, bigger than the Grand Canyon, bigger than every single one of my problems, frustrations and worries.
He is bigger.
He is well able and willing.
I needed that this week.